Montag, 8. Oktober 2012

Many things happened

Hello! Sorry for the late post, but many things happened and I didn't have time to renew my blog.
I don't even know how to start, so I'll try to make it in the chronological way from what happened on Monday last week till today.

Before I start writing you can be sure that I'm in a much better mood than the last week.
Many things changed to the better and I can imagine to live in Japan now, although I miss my family and friends from Germany a lot. I also miss german language, so I often read poems in the internet or listen to german music these days. I also have to admit that german pop is soooooo much better than japanese popmusic. In Germany it's about skills, in Japan only about looks and cuteness. For example AKB48. They can't sing, nor dance, but they look so "kawaii" and act so childish that everyone seems to love them. Although, "everyone" ist not true. My lover for example doesn't like them a lot. But that's more because they are about 100 members who all look the same and you don't know who is who. *lol*

Okay, I'm getting offtopic right now. So let's start from the beginning.

On last Monday I met a cosplayfriend from Hokkaido. We know each other for about 2 years, we first met on curecos.com, a japanese cosplay page. We both don't cosplay lately, she, because she is too busy with work and I because I don't have the money. It's very scary to see how much japanese people work. My lover has two jobs, the first 8 hours of the day he works for the television and in the evening 4 hours in a jazz club. And when we want to meet he has to cancel his job, that means that he has to repeat the hours on another day. That's insane, but that's Japan.
Well, I went with my friend from Hokkaido to Harajuku and we made some shopping. I bought a new coat at Forever 21 'cause it's getting "cold" and I need some winter clothes. Although it's actually really warm, but all my friends say that I have to take care not to catch a cold because it's only 25°C!!!! That's summer in Germany hahahahaha XD
Afterwards we went to a place I don't remember the name , but many students go there because there are cheap shops. There were many many bohemian style shops, that weren't really my taste, but everyone thinks different about that.
We also took Purikura together that look very cute!! The evening she already had to return to Hokkaido, so we didn't have a lot of time to spend together, but it was really funny.
I was quite shocked when I heard that they don't have gyaru fashion, h&m or forever 21 in Sapporo. Sapporo is a big city, of course you can't compare it to Tokyo, but I thought that there were more gaijin.

I also met my two best friends last week at Ikebukuro. We went to Karaoke where I desperately tried to find some Tokyo Hotel Karaoke songs in german. Last year they had songs in English, but now you don't see Tokyo Hotel anymore. That's a little bit sad, cause I really wanted to sing a german song, so I sang Sonne from Rammstein. That was quite terrible because I didn't fit into the concept with my girly voice, but we laughed a lot. What made me laugh most was the song Giroppon by Nezumi Senpai which sang my best friend. It's so terrible and the man dances so bad in the movie that we laughed tears hahahaha. And I used a lot of strong  black eyeshadow which ran down my cheeks, so I looked like a zombie when we came out of the Karaoke.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SSVirz2TT6k

Unfortunately you can't see the video in Germany because of GEMA.

On Wednesday I had a meeting at CHAPPE TOWN. Chappe town is a firm that helps foreigner to find work in Tokyo. My mother found it in the internet after that shop from Shibuya 109 didn't asnwer. They told me, "the letter will arrive the next day", but it didn't arrive at all. And when I phoned there they repeated the same phrase... Not a very good shop, I won't go shopping there anymore, that's for sure. But it wasn't my favourite shop, so I don't really care. Lately I fell in love with Ank Rouge, what is a little bit like Liz Lisa's fashion.
Anyway, I went to Chappe town where they contacted two shops at Lumine in Shinjuku (which is like Shibuya 109, but less gyaru fashion.) But I have to wait other 2-3 weeks for a reply, so I'll start a different job while waiting for their reply. Today I'm going to work at Chappe Dining, which is an English Dining. I'll work as a waitress, but I'll have to talk a lot to the customers, all in English. Most customers will me English students. I have to work from 18~23pm. I hope that I won't miss the last train. *lol* 
They asked me to come with black pants and black shoes. I only had that boots that aren't very practical, so  the day before yesterday I went some shopping at Harajuku. I bough black shoes and a white blouse from Body Line.

I told you about working with a La Mer student right? I actually had the shooting last week on Friday. I'll receive the professional pictures in about 2 weeks, but I already took a picture with my friend. It was a great shooting. I had to get up at 5 am that day because we already started with the make up at 7 am. The whole styling took 4 hours!!! The shooting was only about one hour. *lol* I got home at about 5pm and I fell asleep at once. But I really liked the style...

On Saturday I met my german friend Julia and we went to Ikebukuro. There we visited the closet child shop where they also sold visual kei music. Oh my god, it's a shame that I liked those bands once. All those guys who look like dolly girls, terrible. I discovered a magazine of Miyavi. I really loved Miyavi once and while my friend searched for some Dir en Gray stuff I took a look at the pictures an thought:"Actually Miyavi is the only guy worth saving when the world would end in December 2012." *lol* I'll never return to that fan girling, I'm too old for that now, but Miyavi looks sympathic and nice. Btw, when I got home I searched m very first boyfriend and facebook. He looked like Miyavi 5 years ago. But I was shocked when I saw how he changed. He looks like he would take drugs or something. He's only 24, 6 years younger than my lover, but he looks much older than him. terrible....

In Ikebukuro we also went into some anime stores to search for Final Fantasy goods. I wanted Noel and Caius, but I only got Lightning and Serah hahaha XD and shock, they don't sell YEUL!!! -.-

I also bought Sima Zhao from Dynasty Warriors, cause he looks like my lover hahaha XD
He denied it, but they really look alike. So I'm always caring him with me.

Well, let's see how my first day of work will be. I still have to wait 4 hours... grrr, I'm so excited. Please wish me good luck that it will be good!!!

See you soon!!!





Montag, 1. Oktober 2012

XnaLara Comic 1

Maybe I already told you about my xnalara comic. Well, I actually started 4, but didn't finish one. The one I'm going to post are the first ten pages of the second comic. It should be a horror story, but it's open ended. I don't think that I will ever add the end, I'm not very into xnalara these days. Too many other things that have to be thought of...

Well, enough text, I already wrote another post today. So please enjoy reading. :)




 Sorry for that mistake, of course her name is Yeul XP



That's for today. If you want to go on reading, please wait the next post! :)

Another week without success

Hi! I don't know if my last post was one week ago, but it seems that I don't manage to be successful at all.
This is another depressive post of all the depressive posts I had (I have the feeling that I only write my blog when I'm depressed).

I'm waiting for the reply of min plum for almost one week. They told me that they would reply last Friday, they didn't. I phoned them and they said that it became Monday. So I waited the whole stupid day and... nothing! Can't they simply tell me that they don't take me?
Another negative answer from Cecil McBee, Ladymade, moussy, Pinky girl and ANAP arrived. Why is it so difficult to get a job as a stupid shop assistant? There's nothing to do, only yelling irashaimase and tell the customers how kawaii they look and those girly, pink dresses. Doesn't seem to be too complicated for me.
They make compliments and tell me that I could easily work there, when I want to work there, they tell me that I can't because I had to live in Japan for at least 5/6 years. MA VA A CAGHER!!!! How did other working holiday people manage to find a job when they even didn't speak fluently japanese?
That seems quite odd to me...

I don't have anything to do the whole day 'cause bf and friends are all working. Maybe it's just a temporary feeling, but it seems like nobody cares for me... >_< Everyone wants a kawaii friend from europe. "Minnie, you're so cute, you look like  doll!" yeah, but I'm no fuckin' doll!!!! I'm a human being with feelings. I'm alone in this country, I don't have a family to stand by. So when I miss my country, could you please try to brighten me up?

And all those "kawaii" wannabe dakota roses from Europe trolling through Shibuya with japanese grandpas as boyfriends, aren't you ashamed of yourself?! It's disgusting to run after grandpas only because they have a thick portemonnaie. There are times I'm really happy when I see european people, couples or people who act in a "normal" way. But those "look-at-me-i-am-so-cute-cause-i-am-european-and-i-have-big-eyes" girls are just annoying. Today i went to my friend's make up school and there was a european girl. I said hello, she didn't even answer. I only thought... "bitch". and then she acted like a superprincess, talked to the japanese student as the japanese was inferior. I got so mad. Actually the japanese girl was much prettier than her. I really would have liked to get up and say "who do you think you are?" but I didn't.

This week a new student from Switzerland came to my host family's house. His name is Hiro and he's half japanese, but he doesn't speak so he goes to the Kudan language school for japanese language and culture. He's a very nice person, very friendly and open minded, not like the german student before. I don't want to talk in a bad way about the german guy, I felt sad for him when he had to return to Germany cause I know how terrible Germany is...but we didn't have a good relation to each other. We hardly talked to each other and I never knew what to say. But this is a typical german attitude. It's the same with german friends, also female, you never know what you say 'cause they could understand it wrong and than they act like "wtf, he/she was acting like an asshole" although I wanted to say with my story "look, he/she is very humorous." I feel that I don't belong to europe at all. But sometimes I have the feeling, like today, that there is no place I belong to. I think of the poem of Joseph Eichendorff. His last words were: "ich möcht am liebsten sterben, dann wärs auf einmal still." I thought of that sentence several days. It means: "i really would like to die, than it would suddenly become quite." Of course I don't want to die, but I understand this poem so, so well. The nly thing is that it's about a bad love. I wuldn't sing about a bad love, but about a bad current life hahaha XD
The things is, that I don't even have money to consult myself with going shopping. I managed everything with the bank, but I feel like not having come far at all. As I already said, I hope that's just a current feeling. I know that it'll become better, after a bad time always follows a good time, but I have to work for it. Tomorrow I'll go to meet a friend from Hokkaido. We'll go to Harajuku. I hope that tomorrow will be better. :)

Dienstag, 25. September 2012

Till now

Hi guys, sorry for my very late post. I just didn't find the right minute to answer. I was busy or too exhausted to write a new entry. *lol* Well, here I am. It's about 11 pm here now and I should go to bed soon, but since I don't have any other plans tomorrow I can stay awake for longer.

The last week was very... taihen. *lol* I had to finish all the burocracy because those monkeys at Narita didn't write my adress on the residence card. I went to the UFJ bank near Toyocho station to open an account, but I couldn't because there wasn't written my adress and I didn't have an inkan (my personal stamp). When i asked where I could get that inkan, the stuff couldn't help me. about the problem with the residence card she said: "oh, you can also let it write down by your host family or friends, as long as a japanese habitant writes down the adress it's okay." I believed her words and went back home, where my host family wrote down the adress on the card. I only had to get a stamp from the regional office than.
But the office already closed at 5pm, so I decided to make my stamp first. I went to Ito yokado department store (Is it called like this, don't remember the name) in Kiba and talked to the shop stuff. She said that it would take 2-3 weeks to make my stamp. WTF, that would take years. And the stamps they made also costed about 100 euro!!! so I went to another department store the next day after my host mother's korean lesson (she's teaching korean) and we made a stamp for 10 euro in 5 minutes. Fair enough. I wrote down Maria in Katakana, it looks quite cool. ;)
Next day I went to the regional office, where I got an heart attack because they got very severe when they saw that my host family wrote the adress on my card. they said, that this was forbidden. There was no other way of solving the problem by making a new residence card at the tokyo regional immigration bureau at shinagawa. I though they could simply cancel the first adress, but japanese rules are a litte bit weird, so the next day I had to go to shinagawa (all the fun costed me 3000yen of train money!!!) and make a new residence card. and not only the money, I had to wait 3 hours till I got my new card. What's the deal with the new card? It's exactly the same like the older one, only without the adress at the back written by my family. 
That was a bad joke. Following day I returned to the regional office, they stamped my card after the wrote down the adress (wow, what a difference! *lol*) and afterwards I could open an account at UFJ bank. My book is quite nice, it has disney characters hahahha. looks very awesome...

Oh, by the way, I had a meeting last Friday with the owner of min plum at shibuya 109. I phoned them and gave them my curriculum vitae. What kind of feeling I have after the meeting? I don't know... he owner had such a poker face. At the beginning he asked me where I lived and when I answer he said:"argh, that's quite far away." I was like "Omg, yeah, already failed at the beginning." But afterwards when he read my curriculum vitae he said that he liked my language skills XD I hope that is a good message. They'll reply on Friday and tell me if I get the job or not. I'm very worried 'cause I don't know whether the meeting was good or bad and I really want that job because I'm out of money. Autumn comes and I only took summer clothes with me. I don't even have a jacket and it became quite cold the other day. I think i also caught a cold. :(
So please pray for me that I will get that stupid job!!!

Another story, I met a student of the LaMer make up school at Shibuya called Saori. She's practicing her skills to become a professional make up artist and she asked me to be her model. We met to make a bride make up rehearsel, she did it quite well. her teacher's were very friendly and they took lots of pictures. Would be cool if they were available the next days. 


this is the homepage of the school. There are quite cool pictures of very beautiful models. I'd like to do a shooting like this soon :)

Today I didn't do anything interesting. My boyfriend told me to watch the anime Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica, so I watched it the whole day. My internet connection is very bad (I was without internet the last 4 days), so it took the whole day to watch all the episodes and I'm still not done. The last one is missing. I'll watch it tomorrow cause I don't have plans for tomorrow. When I started the anime I thought like: "WTF, my boyfriend is watching that kind of stuff? Is he gay?" *lol* but the more you go into the story, the more you want to watch it. Maybe you've already heard or read about that, it's very popular these days.



Dienstag, 18. September 2012

Things that really make me angry *lol*

Minna sama, konbanwa!

I'm in Japan for 2 and a half weeks now and I really enjoy being here.
Still, there are some things that make me just think: "WHY?" or "WTF!!"

Last week a saw a very strange show in television (haha, it's funny to write this cause actually every show here is just strange. I hate watching tv here *lol*). It was about "what makes you idols angry".
When you talk in Japan about idols, they mean people you never saw before, korean popstars and akb members *lol* Well, of course it was stupid, but it made me think about what makes me angry and I found some things that were typical for my anger in Japan hahahaha.

First of all the burocracy here is terrible. To get internet you need to wait 2 weeks, for an answer after you sent your curriculum vitae you wait 2 weeks, when you want to prepare a stamp you have to wait two weeks. I though that Japan was always known as a very fast country. o.O Today I was quite pissed of. I went to the bank to open an account for my work. I still didn't find a job, but if I got one, I would need a japanese account. There they told me that I couldn't open an account without inkan (stamp), what is like a signature here in Japan. So I asked the women at the bank, she looked at me as if I was dumb and said."shoushou omachi kudasai (please wait a second)". she went to another women, they discussed about half an hour, than she came back and told me. "I'm sorry, I can't help you. You should ask your host family." WTF! And for that answer I had to wait about 30 minutes? I messages my host mother, she answered that I could make it at the shops where they also sell pens etc. So I went there and asked for a stamp. First half an hour of discussion, afterwards. "We're sorry, but we don't make stamps with the alphabeth."
I answered: "it's okay, I can also have one in katakana."
so I wrote down my name in Katakana. In Japan a stamp consists (when you want it in Katakana) usually of fours signs. But how should I know which signs were the right ones to choose? Should I choose two from my first name and two from my surname? I asked, the discussed and afterwards there was the answer. "I'm sorry, I don't know. Please go to the bank and ask how it's okay for them." GRRRRRR... When they work in a shop that is specialized on stamps, shouldn't they know better? Or do I think too german? I went back to the bank and it was closed. AT 5 pm!!! Don't they work at all? I was soooo angry... >_< I will have to make all this nonsense tomorrow.

Second point that gets really on my nerves. The boys. There are minimum 7 boys a day who ask for a date. WTF! Just some examples of today. I was sitting in the centre of Shibuya near Shibuya 109 and wrote textmessages to my friends, when one of those supercool japanese guys came. He surely needed 3 hours to style his hair like this. He looked a little bit like my boyfriend, but 20 cm smaller *lol* I have a boyfriend now, so I don't care for other boys and I know that in Shibuya are mostly player, so when he sat down next to me I went away before he could start a conversation. Short before I arrived at mcDonald there was this typical "sumimaseeeeeeen!", which terrifies me because it means that there is another guy who wants to date you. And yeeees, it was the same guy who wanted to sit down next to me. My thoughts: "Ehm, when a girl goes away when you sit next to her, doesn't that mean that she is not interested?"
But I kept friendly and answered "I'm sorry, I'm very busy."
He kept telling: "Oh, it only takes 5 minutes." My thoughts: "Yeah, 5 minutes to love hotel you player. I know that kind of guy..."
I: "I'm sorry, I have a boyfriend." (This is the typical way to say, not interested, I already used it when I was still single XD)
He: "Oh, I don't care..." I got so angry. First of all, when you don't care it means that you even don't try to become my boyfriend. You only want "asobu, meeeeeku rabu", how bad are you?
I told him that he should get his back out of my sight (in a friendlier tone of course XD) and went down to McDonald, where I met the next strange, strange guy. The other one was a player, but the McDonald guy was even scary!! I sat down and ate my hamburger (yeah, sexy a girl that's eating hamburger) when he sat next to me and started to stare at me. I was short before saying "you have a problem?", but I kept on eating when he started with "sumimaseeeeeeen..." GRRRRR, I ignored him. He looked away and I thought: Puuuuh, he doesn't seem to be interested anymore..." But when I got up to leave I saw that he also got up. NOOOO!! So I hurried up and ran down the street where many people where. "Now he can't even try to speak to me, cause I'm gone with the wind." were my thoughts, but than I saw that he followed me and starred at me like I was an alien or something. I ran into a shop and he still followed me! That scared me to death. He stalked me till I met a friend on the road and we went into a coffee shop. She also took me to the main station cause I was scared that the guy would follow me to my train. He lost my trace , lucky me...
The next guy who really made me angry was when I recognized that the bank was closed. There came a guy and said: "Oh, the bank is closed. If you want to enter, than you have to go that way." I first thought. "Thank you, what a nice guy...", but suddenly he took my hand and wanted me to follow him. I got angry and shouted. "hey, I'm a foreigner, but I'm not stupid! I can find the other entrance! And who allowed you to touch my hand!" hahaha, his face bleached from one second to another. Sometimes I really ask myself what these guys think... o.O

Another strange story is about a guy from Osaka I met when I was on a walk through Shibuya. I didn't want to go to the coffee shop with him, I'm not interested at all. He is one of the guys who talk, talk, talk and when you take a look around your suddenly in another place hahahaha XD
And yes, he talked withaout a break and told me, that he liked host club style, and he wore the clothes, but he wasn't a host but a model. Sure...
He asked me for my phone number and I woul'd like to bite myself into my back for giving him the number. Since that moment I got mails everyday, about his ex-girlfriend, how he liked me etc, till yesterday morning. I got up to read my mails, when I received one with the text. "Oh Minnie, I know you have a bf, but i really love you. I want to spend every single hour with you, so I would be pleased if you would take me as your second bf. It's okay for me to be the number 2, as long as I can spend time with you." (nice rhyme lol)
WHAAAAAT? NOOOO!!! First of all, my bf would never allow it, second, I would feel like a b**** and third point... NOOO! There is a word called proud. Did he never hear of that??? I already tried to explain that I don't feel anything for him, but he doesn't seem to understand...

Well, after I wrote abou things that make me angry, I show you some things that made me smile. :)

Some nights ago I wrote the whole night with my boyfriend. He's often busy with work, so we don't chat often for a long time, but that day he seemed to miss me a lot hahaha. When he writes he's always cute, but he never is the type who writes many hearts, he seems to be quite shy. What makes me even more happy, when I receive a mail like that in the middle of the night.

I won't translate it, the one's who can read japanese will understand it anyway. ;) But I was so happy, I stil feel drunk of love hahahaha XD 

Another thing that made me smile (in a negative way) was when I went to Shibuya 109-2 with my german friend. 109-2 is the same like Shibuya 109, only for men. So there are sexy smexy shop assistants hahaha XD We went there to take a look at the men's fashion and what we saw was just... CREEPY HAHAHA!!!
Hello Kitty... for MEN?! Who would wear that? My bf's birthday is next month, if I had the money, I would buy him these shorts as a present. Just a joke of course. I can't imagine that they sell those in one of the coolest shops of Tokyo. Boys really ARE different here. My european female friends all were like "Gosh, terrible!" . My japanese friends said. "Oh, how cuuuute!!"...
Hm... I don't want a cute guy, I want a masculine macho hahaha XD Pink and hello kitty, no thank you ^^'

Aaaaaaaand, yes, I don't have money, but I bought new shoes at the Body Line Shop in Harajuku Takeshita Dori. I need them for my presentation when I get a job and for my date on Saturday ^^'

Hahaha, grandma's shoes!! No, I liked them very much, also because they are a little bit higher what makes the leg seem longer XD They were available in black, black white, white and pink (and brown) but my Liz Lisa dress that i want to wear is white brown, so I think it's quite good to have them in that color. they only cost 3999 yen which is veeeeery cheap in comparison to Shibuya 109.

Oh, what I forgot to say, i had a meeting with my friend Saori from the La Mer make up school today. I'm going to model for her, we will me on Thursday morning at 9 in front of Hachiko, so that we can go to the make up school together. 

And I even don't have to be scared of make up that ruins my skin cause since i'm in Japan my sin looks much better. I don't know if it's because it's so humid or the food, but I'm very satisfied.

no make up, no edit, I took the photo short before I went to sleep :) Can't wait to work together with Saori lalalala!! That's gonna be great!

Okay, I'll go to bed now cause I have to get up early tomorrow!

Oyasuminasai!! <3


Donnerstag, 13. September 2012

Japan week 1


I'm sorry for my late post, but there where some things I had to
manage before I could take my time to write a post. I'm in Japan for about 1 1/2
weeks and I really like it, although everything isn't perfect of course.
I came to Japan on Saturday the 1 September. First thing I noticed. September here is
still very, very hot. In Munich (I had to change my plane because there is no direct
flight from Hamburg to Tokyo), it was raining and only about 12 °C. It was also raining
in Tokyo, but with a temperature of about 30°C. So when I arrived, it was very jime jime (humid) and everyone was finished. I already wanted to get a cellphone at Narita (I still had
my phone from last year, so I thought that I only had to buy a prepaid card), but my phone
didn't work anymore due to the fact that I didn't use it for one whole year. So I had to renew it,
but I'm only 19 and you become adult with 20 in Japan, so I had to go to my new home without new cellphone. I live in Toyocho now. that's in Koto-ku (near Chiba) at the east of Tokyo. I'm still with my old family, but they moved from Shin Koiwa to Toyocho, so I had to learn the new train connections. The last years I always went with JR (Japan Railways). That is quite easy because you have a line for almost every important station (like Shibuya, Shinjuku etc.).
This time I have to take the subway. So I got a plan with all the lines and I already started to learn it by heart. (I already know that I have to use the Tozai line and change for the Ginza line at Nihonbashi to go to Shibuya *g*)

When I arrived at Toyocho train station I didn't know where to go, so I phoned my host mother who was at work and asked where to go. She told me "go to the second exit and search for a taxi driver. Show him the adress and he will take you there." I did what she told me to do, but I was a little bit difficult for the taxidriver to find the house first. After he asked all the neighbourhood we finally found the building. I rang the bell 'cause my host mother told me before that there was another german student at home, but he didn't notice me because he drank too much the night before and was sleeping. So I asked a stuff if she could open the door to enter the building and started to knock wild when I arrived at my appartement. He finally heard me and opened. The first thing I thought of was "I want to get a new softbank mobile phone" hahahaha. It's very important for me to contact all my friends, so I wrote a message to my host mother and she told me that she already got a phone for me. So I didn't have to leave the house for the rest of the day.
First I thought that I wasn't tired at all, but when I lay down on my bed I fell asleep at once. And I slept the whole rest of the day till the evening when my host mother came home. We talked a lot, she gave me the cellphone and I contacted all my friends who were just waiting for my mail.

It was very difficult to sleep the first night cause I already slept the whole day and I had a problem with the difference of the time. (In summer there are 7 hours of difference, in winter 8). So I stayed awake the whole night till I finally fell asleep at about 4 am.

I'm here for 6 months to make working holiday, what means that I have to search for a job to pay the rent (what means the host family). I thought that it would be nice to have a job at the beginning of the month, so I wouldn't have to care about money. So I went to Shibuya the next day and asked at Shibuya 109. Shibuya 109 is a departement store with ( I think) the most beautiful shops in the whole world. They sell everything, from casual (moussy) to cute dresses like liz Lisa or sexy ganguro style like d.i.a.. I asked at the shops my looks would fit the most and got some information from the shop stuff. I got a sheet from moussy with information about working time and payment. It was about 40 hours of work during a week and 900 yen(about 9 euro) for one hour. And I noticed that it's the same management with all the other shops at Shibuya 109. I think that it's quite good, so I really want that job. I also ask around at ladymade and minir deez, they gave me information and the shop assistant of minir deez even took a picture of me to send it to the head of the brand. She also told that she would contact me, but i still didn't get an answer from her. >_<
Afterwards I went to Harajuku to ask aroung at Takeshitadori (the avenue where all the shops are). I had a "style shoot" for a fashion blog and they uploaded my picture and data yesterday, but I look terrible on the photos. The fashionblog shows the most "kawaii" models for brands like ANAP etc. but I don't look kawaii at all on the pictures, so I don't think that they will take me. hahahaha XD
http://fanblogs.jp/jfeniex/archive/105/0

I also made a new friend (male of course)who invited me to drink a juice with him (I took maccha of course, green milk-tea). We already changed mobile phone addresses, but I have a boyfriend now (it's my ex-bf mr. te hehehehe) and when I told him about that he didn't answer anymore. That's typical here. *lol*

Anyway, when I got home I bought a sheet at Lawson's to write a rirekisho (curriculum vitae). I had some difficulties because I wrote "too german" like my host father said. I wrote "I want to work at moussy because I like the fashion, I modeled in Germany for one year, so I understand fashion very well etc." but my host father told me that I should write it in a japanese way, like "I worked as a model in Germany for one year and I got in touch with fashion, also japanese brands. Since I fell in love with them, I want to learn many things about japanese brands and I found you, moussy san, which is the most beautiful brand in the world. I would be very honored if I could see myself working in a fashionable store like yours... etc." Oh well, that's very exagerated, but if japanese people do it like that...
Afterwards I sent my curriculum vitae to the main quarter of the brand (I already sent two), but  I still didn't get an answer. I was very worried, so I asked my friends and my host family and they told me that it takes a lot, a lot of time till you get an answer from a japanese firm. When I really have to wait for weeks, I will have finished all my money even before having started to work. That worries me a lot. But I will try to think positive and hope that I'll get an answer in the next few days.

The following day I went to Shibuya and got a lot of information for modeling jobs from scouts. I went to an agency called alpha core, which is probably one of the best agencies in Tokyo. They told made that they'd take me immediatly, but, what's normal for japanese agencies, I would have to pay them before. It's also the same in Germany, so I thought it wouldn't cost more than 50 euro, but hell, when I saw the price I was just shocked.  78.000 yen (about 780!!! euro) to join the agency. The costs would be so high because I would start to work as a model, singer (like all this stupid little girls from akb) and actor for movies and japanese dorama. But WTF, 78.000 yen are way too much. I only have 20.000 yen left for now and I would have to work for ages to manage to pay them. When I told them that it was "muri" (impossible) they asked me if I could return to them when I lived in Japan for my whole life, so after university. I said yes, so they already prepaired my profile for 2016/2017 hahahaha XD
After that I met a scout who searched for half japanese models. He thought that I also was half, so he started to talk to me and said afterwards "it's okay. As long as we can ship you as a half japanese , and you really look like that, you will gain a lot of money". He even gave me the contract and it looked like I didn't have to pay anything, but I canceled the contract already after a few days because the agency seemed quite odd to me. They didn't have any information on the internet, the telephone number he gave me didn't exist (only in Australia) and the shooting should take place in another building than written on their information. When I phoned him he told me, that they were new, so they didn't have any information, but before that he said that they already had any contracts with japanese famous magazines like men's egg, so I canceled the contract before I should get into problems. (Cause I heared that these so-called agencies are often lead by the yakuza. They try to catch girls with modeling contracts and use them afterwards as prostitutes.) o.O

After one day of gorogoro (doing nothing, only sleeping and lying lazy in the bed) I met my two best friends Minami (Nozomi) and Hanabi (Ayako). I always call them with their usernames. *lol* We went to eat some pizza and I told them about Italy, especially about italian boys and showed them the pictures of my cousain and his best friend Corrado. They fell in love with both of them and asked me the whole time. "What is your cousain(Corrado) doing?Doesn't he want to come to Japan?etc." It was very funny. We also took cute purikura at Ikebukuro and went to some cosplay shops. I saw some wonderful cosplays I will get when I finally have the money.
1. Karina from Tiger and Bunny
2. Blue Rose from Tiger and Bunny
3. Kasuga from Sengoku Basara
4. Da Qiao from Dynasty warriors 5
5. Himiko from Warriors orochi
6. Roxas from Kingdom Hearts 2



I promised my sis that I would cosplay Roxas for her because that's her favourite character, but I can't spend my money for "nonsense" like Cosplay right now. Btw,  I phoned the moussy shop today and asked about my curriculum vitae and that I wanted to work soon and I asked if they could hurry up. they told me at the telephone that they normally take about 3 weeks, but they will try to decide as soon as possible. If I would get the job, it would mean that I could only start next month. And that would mean that I could get problems with my money. I decided to write another curriculum vitae and I hope that I will get a job very soon.

Last friday I met with my boyfriend Mr. Te ( XD). His name is Tetsuya, but when I wrote about him in public I always call him mr. te. It was a great date, we met at Shibuya Hachiko and went to a restaurant where they also sold Tiramisu. It was quite expensive, but he paid for everything, so it#s okay. I recognized that in comparison to Europe, in japan still the boys pay for the girls, what is very, very good. That doesn't mean that women have less rights, that just means that boys still have to do something for the girl, at least spend a lot of money to go out with the girl they like. Afterwards we went to the game center and he won for me a small, white bear, that looks like Rilakkuma. And when I told him that he looked like pedobear (first I also had to explain him what pedobear is) he laughed and said that that wasn't a hentai bear, but the small brother of Rilakkuma. *lol* I didn't know that he knew so well about that.
We talked a lot and he asked me to give him some german lesson. He was very proud that he knew the alphabeth, the ß (what is NOT a b), letters like ä,ö,ü and the destination of Germany. He only failed about the size of Germany (he thought that Germany had the size of the USA hahahahahaha XD)
He had broken his foot while he went to the kickboxing training, so he has to go to the doctor's every day. But we made up to meet next week again. So I'm very dokidoki XDDDD


The last two days I met with friends. One was from Fukuoka (that is at the south of Japan and doesn't have to do anything with Fukushima, just  for the one's who mix up the names) and we talked a lot about cosplay and Purikura. We met at Akihabara and also entered many shops. But... ugh... I don't like Akihabara that much anymore. The last years there were many goods of video games, but now you only see breasts of manga and anime characters who have baby faces and maids who are ugly like hell. >_<
And now they don't even have many Final Fantasy goods anymore. I went to animate with my friend ( a goods shop) and they only sold things of Uta no Prince sama, Tiger and Bunny, Madoka Magica and -uuuuhh- I found one Final Fantasy Lightning statue and that was all. >_< Next time I'll search for goods at Ikebukuro. There are less maids, less breasts and more Final Fantasy and Date Masamune goods hahahaha XD

Yesterday I met with a german friend who visited the same language school like me three years ago. We went through Shibuya and made a bit fun of the strange trousers japanese boys use to wear. There was a guy who wore trousers that looked like a tent, in skyblue with strange, naked red haired dolls. *lol* And he walked through Shibuya like he was a boss or something. And the boys who got on our nerves and asked for a date didn't end. We were sitting in front of Hachiko, , when one after another came and tried to talked to us in a bad English. Hahahaha, the first really scared me because he appeared so suddenly. And than he started to talk like: "Hello, you are adorable. I'm waiting for my friends, meanwhile I thought that we could spend some time together." My friend started to laugh when she saw my strange face and I acted like not speaking English nor japanese. The second shared some flyers and was even old, but still asked for a date. And when we said, "urusai", which means "you get on our nerves", he walked away. Immediatly the next group of boys came, we sent them away,  and afterwards the old man returned  and asked if I would have changed my mind. After that day I was sooooo tired. I returned home, fell asleep and woke up this morning at half past 9. *lol*

Well, that's all for now. Let's see what the next days bring. And please pray for me that I get this stupid job.

Byebye!!

Sonntag, 26. August 2012

もうすぐ日本だぁ~!

Hi guys!! It seemed to be such a long time ago since I was in Japan the last time, so I still can't believe that my flight is on friday and that I won't see my family anymore this year.
I'm very confused. On one hand I'm very glad because I'll see my friends again. I skyped wit my best friend Minami yesterday and I felt that also she was happy. She told me that "we will go shopping, immediatly to Karaoke and many cosplay events. I phoned to Hanabi yesterday and she said that she's expecting you as well and my friend Noranna from Brunei can't wait to meet you." Same here, i want to meet you all!! I remember when I introduced Hanabi to Minami last year. I met them both at curecos, the japanese cosplay page, but they didn't know each other before. When we met we went to karaoke together and we laughed a lot, so everyone wants to repeat that beautiful time.

And, yes... imagine that my last japanese lover, I always call him Caius cause he looks like Caius from Final Fantasy 13-2, can't wait to see me, too. he sent me a mail in which he wrote: "I still can't believe that you come to Japan Minnie. I'm so happy about that, I want to see you sooooo much! Contact me when you arrived at Narita, I want to know that you are save." Maybe the distance made us live our own lives, but I think that my travel to Japan will make us to lovers again. *lol*
I already told my best german cosplay friend emi about our relation and she said, that i had to tell her everything about our dates. *lol* so let's see. And deep in my heart I'm still trying to make him cosplay Caius, so we can cosplay together. <3

Btw, short different story while talking about cosplay, Kaname san, the famous cosplayer from Japan, send me a mail the day before yesterday. Nothing special about that and I'm not a typical fangirl, but I was just laughing. I'm following one of his fanpages on facebook, written by a girl who uploads 5000 pics of him a day. *lol* And she always writes that he loved him sooooo much etc. and always spams on his dashboard. *lol* I just started to laugh when I saw that I was the only one Kaname answered. XD Maybe people, especially girls should stop with their fangirling and write in a normal way, so that the stars don't feel too embarassed. I don't think that Kaname remembered me, he met so many people in his live, but I know that my cosplay friend Nanaumi Aqua ( we made a final fantasy 7 group together) knew him and introduced me to him shorty. He's handsome but... he's small... *lol* Okay, I'm small too with my 159 cm, but he was like 165 maximum hahahaha XD And he's very very shy, apart of a konnichiwa we didn't talk with each other. But well, that's how life goes. Maybe I'll see him at a cosplay event soon. I hope that he cosplays Noel from FF13-2 some day. Noel is my favourite character and they really look alike in some way. It would make me happy, I don't only want to save Noel cosplay pics from female cosplayer on my computer. *lol*


Okay, Noel is still hotter because nobody can reach his beauty *g* *lol* But they do look alike a little bit, don't they?
I would be in heaven when my Caius would cosplay Caius, Kaname Noel and I Yeul. hehehehehe XD

Oh, by the way, here's a picture of the TFT event whith my cosplay group :) I'm Aerith with Kaktor in my arms *lol*



Okay, back to my preparations for Japan. I stiill have to prepare the bags and I still have to spend a lot of time with my family. Today my grandma comes to lunch at our house. I like her, but I hope that she doesn't start to talk about my stupid cousains. It's my farewell lunch because it's the last Sunday I spend in Germany for the rest of the year, so I hope that I won't become stressed by the other's.

Still working on my new comic of xnalara, where the topic is a bout a video game school class hahahaha XD
I started to devide the class into small groups (because there are typical groups in my class. I guessthat only my class is different, cause we only had one boy *lol*)

The first group is team "hot boys". The boys who are popular because they're handsome, rich and intelligent. *lol* Every girl likes them hahaha XD

2.Team - Chaotix the group of stupid boys who only plan shit. Their behaviour is soso and they play soccer inside the classrom

3. Team - Fangirls the girls who fall in love with every boy and they only talk about boys XD

4. Team - sexy bee the other half of team hot boys, they're very popular and everyone loves them because they're so beautiful

5. Team - Brats the guys who play tricks on everyone

6. Team - outsiders (us) the team I always belonged to in class, I think the name already explains everything.

So, that's it for today :) C u soon!!!

Freitag, 24. August 2012

why most people think that we nerds are freaks

Hi guys, it's been a while, but I was busy with doing nothing. *lol*
I worked a lot on xnalara, I already wrote a post about this programm. But I also had a lot of stress because of it. Especially because of this picture!

Omg, Vanille Farron and Hope Estheim are kissing each other!! How terrible. Yes, it's stupid, but this image caused a discussion with a nerd who really seemed to be a freak.
First she wrote something like: "How sad that this is never going to happen. Stop making this pairing, Vanille belongs to Fang and Hope x Lightning". or something like this. I didn't quote, but the sentence was about that topic.
I wrote down: "no, cause it's my story and there Vanille loves Hope." Afterwards that freak started a discussion about that all people who support Vanille and Hope are freaks and stupid because this will never happen. Most fans don't like that pairing so I should suck it up and stop making these pictures.
EHM, EXCUSE ME!! Do I live in the DDR or in Nazi-Germany, where free art is censored or forbidden?
How can a girl decide what kind of pictures I had to upload and what not? And who cares about the majority of the fans? I do what I like, my art is for me, not for somebody else. I'm glad when someone likes my pictures, because I worked a lot on it, but if people don't like it, it's okay, until they don't write stupid comments like she did. How dare she think that she could decide whether I could upload my pictures or not? About a couple that doesn't even exist.

I also describe myself as a nerd. I love videogames and videogame characters, especially Final Fantasy characters, but I never judge people because of their pairings. Of course I have fave characters and fave pairings, but that doesn't mean that I have to complain about others.
I have friends who do artwork with Lightning and Hope. I don't support the pairing, but they did the picture with so much love and enthusiasm, that I like their shoots. People who treat bad others because they don't share their opinion are simply insane. Especially when it's about a simple topic like videogames.

Fortunately I met many people on deviantart who supported my pairing, although they didn't have the opinion. I'm happy to see that not all the nerds are freaks like that girl.
We started to talk about Final Fantasy Pairings and it was a lot of fun to see what others think.

I worked on some xnalara pairing the last weeks, I wanted to upload them here.

I worked a lot on this pictures, with the second one I tried to copy the scene from Final Fantasy X with Tidus and Yuna.

Here are other shots :)
I made this shot for my sister and our roleplay. yes I make roleplay's with my sister, I am Vanille and she's Serah. In our play Serah is married with Snow and has a child with him. her name is Belle. Vanille is married with Hope and has a child, his name is Nicolas. *lol*

This picture is the cover for the third part of my comic. I already told you that I'm working on my comic (but I never finish one. I already started with 3, I wanted to start a new one today, but all the comic's aren't finished at all).
In the comic Vanille receives a letter from an anonymous guy in which is written, that the person wanted to talk with her. Whaaaa, I don't want to spoil you, I just tell you: Vanille doesn't like Raines, but he fell in love with her. XD



This is another roleplay picture I took with Vanille, Hope and their baby Nicolas.

By the way, did I tell you that I took pictures with my Yeul cosplay? I still have a lot of things to do, I still have to improve a lot, but I'm happy about the first pictures.


I took it with my camera, it's not professional, so the quality is bad, but I'm happy that I could take some nice pictures.

Well, I already wrote too much I guess.

See you next time.

Oh, by the way, I think that next time I'll write, I won't be in Germany anymore. I'll go to Japan next Friday, so maybe I#ll upload a new post when I'm already on the asian continent.

C U byebye ^^

Mittwoch, 15. August 2012

strange, strange internet.

Hi guys, I have to post here because I'm totally pissed ot. There was a guy who really made my day, or let's better say, made my evening on facebook.

He sent me a friend request on facebook and I accepted, although I didn't know him because I accept every request. Why? I always think that you have a chance to meet new people on facebook , I also met my best friends through facebook and there are many people who also find their love at facebook. But you cannot imagine how angry I was when a guy, who liked many of my pictures, wrote a bad comment about my sister's xnaLara work. I already wrote about Alice; Madness Returns. My sister took a screenshot from the game and edited it with xnaLara, so that instead of Alice fighting with cards Yuna from Final Fantasy X is fighting them. What did that guy write?

"How dare you upload a picture like that. It's against women rights and violant, delete it immediatly." 

How dare you, stupid piece of junk, testa di merda, figlio di una mignotta che non sei altro, (sorry for all these bad words, I don't use them normally, but it really makes me angry) write my sister in that tone. My sister is the best, most honest, friendliest, sweetest person on the world. She never did bad things to anybody, she's always scared to make something wrong. How dare he???!!! I answered in a quite aggressive tone and he, this coward, started to try to explain, that it was the education of his mother to be against violance before she died of cancer and that he is an autist. Who cares? My sister was so terribly sad and made herself responsible for this idiot, so I really made him black ( you say this in italian when you treat someone very bad). After he apologized several times he first tried to put himself into a better light talking about his enormous intelligence. "I have an iq of over 200."
I almost wanted to write "yeah, than don't forget the comma's and write in good german, 'cause I don't understand a bit of the shit your talking about."
I only said: "yeah, congratulations. you want me to feel stupid in comparison to you, me, with my minimal iq of 125?" Than he started to explain that he never managed to have a girlfriend till he was 14. I was close to answer: "if you act like an asshole as you did with my sister, you never will find a girlfriend.", but I did't want to start a battle. The sentence that followed made me feel like a stupid piece of meat. "I want a sexy girlfriend like you, will you go with a guy like me?"

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY SHOULD I? ALTHOUGH I DO NOT KNOW YOU, I ALREADY DO NOT LIKE YOU!!!

1. He sent me a request about 2 days ago, this was the first day I talked to him, how can you ask a girl to become your girlfriend if you even didn't meet her in reality? 

2. He's damn ugly, also if there wasn't a guy I like I wouldn't even look at him with my back.

3. One who talks like this with my sister although he doesn't know her character doesn't deserve me as his girlfriend!

And of story!

But I recognize that there are many strange guys in the internet who act in a very strange way. 

Last time, still at facebook, there was a british boy who asked me after two mails if I wanted to become his girlfriend. First of all, I'm single, but that doesn't mean that I need a guy, especially not one who I don't know. Do I look so desperate? Than he said: "If you need someone to talk to, I'm always there for you." What should that mean? If I have problems, I talk to my mother, father, sister, best friend, psychologist, but not to a stranger! Maybe, although i'm only 19, I'm simply too young for that strange generation. I think to love somebody is more than looks, especially not in the internet.

I mean, I could be a faker who edits the photos and says, "yeah, that's all me!" I edit my photos (only the skin etc., when I edit more I upload it in the folder photoshop/gimp) but they can't know.

There is a faker in the internet I was very disappointed about. I read in forums about her the whole day and day before yesterday because I couldn't trust my eyes when I saw that person, one picture with photoshop, the other in reality.
I won't post the picture because I read some creepy things about posting the name and pictures of that person. I read that her mother searched for blogs, pages etc. of her in the internet that write bad things about that girl to make them delete everything and than denounce them. I don't want to get an denounce, so I won't post her name, nor her picture, I guess you all know what I mean though.

Donnerstag, 9. August 2012

XnaLara

Hi guys, again a very late reply. I wanted to take this week to work on my Final Fantasy 13-2 Yeul Cosplay, on Alice; Madness Returns Cosplay and to meet friends, but I unfortunately found that program that draws totaly my attention: XnaLara.

Did you already hear about that? It's a programm made by a Lara Croft Fan (I don't remember his name anymore) you hacked the game and started that programm to bring Lara in different poses. And he shared his programm now. Thanks to many hackers we also have Final Fantasy Characters now. (You can download them at deviant art)
Btw, I was bored, so after a long time I re-started deviant art. If I have the occasion to upload pictures I'll do it, because I don't have a live (Japan travel is starting next month) and I don't know what I should do with all my freetime. XD

Back to XnaLara, I found it the first time when a facebook friend who's calling herself Serah Farron made cute screenshots with character crossovers.

My friend Serah made this picture with Oichi from Samurai Warriors 3 and Serah Farron from Final Fantasy 13-2. Isn't it cute?!
I also requested some pictures and she made them very nice, so thank you :)

But last week she wrote at facebook that she wouldn't take any request anymore. She sent the link of a facebook page called FantasiesCreations, who also make xnaLara pictures and I requested pictures from them. They also have a very cute photostory (it's still in progress, but the first part is already uploaded) with all Square Enix characters. I read it and I loved it so much, I laughed the whole day when I saw how funny the pictures were.

After I saw that many people use XnaLara, also one of my best friends Miyu, I thought. "Impossible that everyone is able to do that except of me..." So I downloaded the programm 4 days ago, installed it and... it didn't work. Why? I didn't read the information that you had to download and install another programm before to make XnaLara run. The programm you have to install is called Microsoft .NET Framework. You can download it here http://www.tombraiderforums.com/showthread.php?t=147100.
After you installed XnaLara you have to download another programm to make the characters run on XnaLara.  Microsoft XNA Framework.
The download only costed about 5 minutes, so I was very pleased that I didn't have to wait half of the day.

Now let the fun begin! I was able to download all characters I wanted from the tomb raider forum und XnaLara on deviantart. The folder of the character has simply to be extracted and put into the data folder of the programm. At the beginning it was a little bit difficult because you have the bones of the character you have to move, but I got used to it very fast. (although I needed one whole hour for my first picture.)


And here is my first photo. The very very first I made. It shows Hope from FF13, Alice from Alice; Madness Returns, Sora and Roxas from Kingdom Hearts, united in one group. Don't you think that Alice and Sora fit wonderful to each other? I'm of the opinion that Kairi likes guys who are more mature than Sora, like Riku or Terra, so Sora simply stays with Alice. :)

Second thought was to start a photostory with the characters. I worked on it the whole day and it still isn't completed, but I don't know how I should write further on, so I already started another one.
I wanted to post my photostory here to show you all my work. (Cause you know I have nothing to do the whole day) XD

 I wrote it in german, so I'll introduce the text into English.

Sora: Hey Kairi, do you have plans for this evening?
Kairi: Ehm, well...
Hope: I also like history of art!!
Roxas: I wrote in the math exam that c = 2.

When Alice Liddel, new student of the class 10 c enters the corridor. 
Sora: Who's that?
Hope: I think she's new.
Alice: I'm Alice Liddel, nice to meet you.

Kairi: Hi, I'm Kairi and that's my best friend Namine. Do you want to join our cheerleader club?
Alice: I hate cheerleading...


In the world of the adults.

Noel: I growed 10 kg, all pure muscles. Yeul will fall on her knees for me.

Noel: I always was on the second place, although I've been there for her the whole time.

Noel: All this humiliations.
Yeul: Blablabla Murphy...blabla Dante, blabla Maxi...
Murphy: That poor child, I'm way too old for her.
Maxi: Noone can resist to my wonderful hair.
Dante: If you want to win Yeul's heart, you need my humor and my charme. 

Noel: Now, after all her dream guys broke her heart, I finally have a chance!!

Yeul: oh, hi Noel. :)

Riku: yeah, I'm satisfied with a 3 (it's like a C at school)
Sora: I have 5, better than 6. :) (5=D/E, 6=F)
Hope: Come on Roxas, the next exam will be better.
Roxas: Yeah, it's easy for You, YOU always have 15 points. (15pt. = 1+ =A+)

Hope's mother: And how was school?
Hope: Good, I have 15pt. in maths. I've already done all the homework at school, so I have time to play the piano now.

Hope's mother: Your private tutoring student has arrived!!

Fang: Are you Hope Estheim, the math genius?
Hope: Ohh, shall I say the truth?

Fang: Stay here you graupel?! I don't want to see an E in math anymore!

Fang: My little sis needs some private tutoring in all the topics. Since she was in 5th class she didn't understand anything anymore. When one of her final exams is math, it's going to become a desaster!!!
Hope: *thinks* If superman defeats Batman next time?

Vanille: ...
Fang: And don't skip the cours, or I'll become really angry!!

Vanille: Here I am!
Hope: eh, yeah...

Vanille: Is it your house? it's so huge!! Looks like the mansion of Lara Croft!
Hope: eh, yes... Daddy bought it from her. Come on, let's learn math or your sister will become angry.

Hope: I have a very good programm on my computer that helps a lot to learn.
Vanille: okay :)

Vanille: Can you explain how it works?
Hope: eh...yes... okay...

Noel: Stupid Yeul. First she cries and tells me everything about her problems and than she goes with Caius.

Fang: What happened?
Noel: Yeul broke my heart, again... What am I doing wrong?
Fang: That's become you frequent the "wrong kind of girl". You need a strong woman, not a princess. Go to the gym, there you'll find a girl.

Noel: YES!! Let's see which girl fits to me.

Leixia: What do you think about my nails? I made them at YRP. How good that Yuna started her career as a nail designer with Rikku and Paine...

Lili: Sorry, I should have said it before, but I'm not interested in boys.
Noel: Whaaaaaat?

Alisa: Love? What's that? You can not calculate love!

Kunoichi: Finally a date!!! I never had a boyfriend! :3

Xiaoyu: And he doesn't even know my name... Although I stalked him that often!

Noel: I don't understand you girls. What is so special about that Dante anyway?
Serah: I never liked Dante, but he also broke Lightning's heart...